Depression and Instagram
Updated: Apr 19, 2020
For those of us who may be more sensitive and/or those who struggle with their mental health, it’s probably best that we tread lightly with social media. The first time I started an Instagram account, it was just not the right time for me. I was dealing with depression, a difficult relationship, weight gain, chronic pain all while going to grad school. I was carrying a lot on my shoulders.
So, whenever I would go on my account and follow accounts that showed my favorite hobby, it was actually more detrimental to my health. I couldn’t travel much at the time and I felt trapped in chaos. Questions I asked myself while scrolling through the never ending picture platform was “Why am I not that thin? Why don’t I have as many followers? Why can’t I travel all the time? And why am I not as happy as them?”.
Pictures are just moments taken from an instant of our life that is most likely posed rather than candid. We cannot tell what is really going on in that persons life through by just looking at that photograph because most likely, there is more there than meets the eye. So, at the time, all these questions were illogical and added more negative thinking.
It took a long time to get to a better place. A place I never thought I would be but had hoped for. I still believe that Instagram can get me down because its showing the “perfection” of everyone’s lives. Sometimes I do question my weight, my size, and wish I was on a beach in the Maldives at a 5 star hotel. BUT psshhh girl, the reality is that that's not my life and I'm okay with that. I’m okay with my size because as long as I try hard to keep my figure, that’s all I can do. Plus, I personally can’t change my bones to reform.. so there is that.
We can’t change who we are, how we look, or even how our lives play out sometimes...but we can control our feelings. Of course, you can decide to quit your job tomorrow, move to a different country and possibly be really happy. But that isn’t always the case. Life is hard and even if you’re on a beach in Maldives, feelings and problems can follow. It’s important to be able to control our feelings and find happiness within ourselves, where we are today.